“Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in Your sight,
O LORD, my rock and my Redeemer.”
– Psalm 19:14 (NASB)
I’m reading through the Bible using the M’Cheyne plan this year and we find ourselves in the Psalms now. I read through Psalm 19 on Thursday and stopped on this familiar verse. I’ve been thinking about how little my words and my meditation are both acceptable in God’s sight. The words can at times be easy to keep acceptable, but often they’re that way because of my fear of man. Worry over how my words will be perceived by others can drive what I say. Proverbs 29:25 reminds us though that “The fear of man brings a snare, But he who trusts in the LORD will be exalted.” So having our words be acceptable to others is of course wrong motivation, but often it’s at least better than what’s bubbling under the surface.
And under the surface, my heart is what’s really troubling of late. I feel long periods of dryness in my Bible reading, as if the words are meant for others and not for me. I should say the warnings feel meant for me, but not the promises. I can identify with the church in Ephesus in Revelation 2, and feel these words being directed specifically at me. Maybe it’s just the busyness of life and adjusting to being a dad as well as a husband, a new job and feeling unsettled for about a year now. But it’s definitely a struggle and a daily push to think God’s thoughts after Him. I read this article a few days ago and reflected on how little my experience matches what she writes about. I think of how often I feel like a player in the locker room getting fired up by the coach but never leaving the tunnel to play the game. So I turn to my Bible each day and pray that the meditation of my heart is acceptable in His sight. If you’ve read this far, I thank you and ask that you pray for me too.